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after so long, met my nyah and her new boyfriend. he is a personification of the kind of man tt i want!! indeed me n nyah gotta same taste!! WOW! he has the business-minded thinking, think before he speaks, full of charisma when he talks, stable job profession, well-dressed on what i say is pleasant though it might nt be stylish in some sense, listens attentively when others are talking and bla bla bla... all i know he fits in the list of a guy tt is able to take care of a woman!! WOW!! he is amazing!! i am happy for my nyah. May Allah bless your relationship.
Ibu was right after all... tt have patience when people wanna bring me down and starting to twist and hurled abusive words to my life story. becos maybe they knew abt my past, they might hv taken it as my weakness tt i am unable to move on. to ignore true facts does not mean the facts is not there.it is still there but how you wanna accept it, is your choice.maybe what i've went thru seems nothing to outsiders who knows abt it but to have myself in such situations...Ya Allah..only you who sees me in great pain.if people understand, they wouldn't have make the whole problem complicated or make themselves to be a contradicting person to the situation.agree?
after i went thru all this heartache, you shld say i am very careful in making choices.just abt anything.be it to choosing of friends, future boyfriend, dates, colours to be used on my proJs, clothes and etc. tears i wept are now smiles and laughters. pain in the past i went thru became the pillar of strength for me to go further. heartache before keeps me being an independent individual... failing during the adolscent stage does not mean i am failing present and future. now i've learned tt never to underestimate one's failure. if you treat things in life in a positive way, insya Allah you will receive the positive outcomes.tested and provened.
i am called evil.i am called a bitch. i accept tt.nt in a sense of proud.if i am named in such, what can i do? to explain to tt person? one thing in life i nvr believe tt works is to explain too much on a problem to people.i prefer to just say the main points and i hush.let Allah do the rest.fact is tt people nvr run away of being judgemental, i always let 'em judge thereafter when same problems happen to their own life. when they feels it, let 'em have the comments for all they want.a malay saying,"selagi tidak kena ke batang hidung dia,selagi tu dia tak akan merasa nya."if they dont have to go thru what i went thru, well Alhamdulilah..they are lucky.
certain things on what ive said, people deny and they will make my position to be that evil person who is just making up stories. you think i will take back the things ive said? Na-ah.No.not becos of ego but becos i speak on what i listen and see. i say things becos of truth not becos to win the people ard me. to be honest, at times my girlfriends go against things tt i wish to do or the problems on which how i wanna react.not everytime they support me.i appreciate tt.i do not expect 'em to always support me although they are my friends. if they think of me a true friend, they speak their mind even though i know i might be offended.by the end of it, i am not at a losing end becos they pointed my wrongdoings and tt gives me a chance to chng it.this is not being mature and immature. what a difference does it make when people describe 'emselve as a mature individual and immature one?? nothing abt maturity but it is all abt oneself. a person can be 30 years old and still acting like a 14 year old kid.everyone is mature and also immature at some sense.to self-proclaim as a mature individual also does not mean it will pleases ppl ard us and able to win their heart.again, it all depends on outsiders to be the judge on the maturity level we have.
[kengkawan, apa yg tercatat tidak ada berkaitan kpd yg hidup atau mati. jadi kawan-kawan jgn terasa sebak di dada ya. sekian. terima kasih.]
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