firah and beatch..ive sent you the pics.. enough pestering ppl!! heh.
bck to square one,everyone busy working and schooling. at last,it's my off day frm sch and work.my headache getting worst man..nvr felt this way for quite some time til' recently.family and girlfriends had bn "nagging" at me to hv enough slp.surprisingly,someone else did too.i dunno whether it is sincerely out of concern.bt thanks anyway.
people doesn't know what i went thru,the heartache and the pain. do i hv to be telling ppl ard tt i forgive 'em? i do not think tt is even necessary to tell 'em. yes,i am a self-centered person.i think only of my own feelings and nt others. ya..ya... if i am very self-centered,i've done those things the otherwise, isn't it?
easy for ppl to tell me to forgive and forget,c'mmon lah...most human nature are like tt.people just nd time to heal.people said tt i'm mean and i said what makes they think tt their own reactions aint tt mean in the past? again they will tell me tt it is past.yes it is...bt did ppl out thr hv any idea the heartache?do you?i know the truth what actually happened when i was in great pain a few mths ltr and still it is so easy for people to say it is in the past.thou' i aint living in it,bt tt pain.. tt's a hard slap on my face.
i know as long i live,people will never stop talking abt my mistakes.people never think tt i am in a right position.i am aware of tt.people don't hv to tell me.i realised it myself whr comes to a point, "history shld nvr be repeating". by the end of it,to make it happen or not,it is still my choice and no other.if it takes me to make those ppl in the past to run away frm me,i will do it.
so what do we call tt person who weren't ard when you were sick bt they play a role to it?what do we call tt person who suppose to be responsible but they ran away and got into another relationship?what do we call tt person who keeps on asking for forgiveness and repeatedly doing it and give all sorts of excuses?what do we call tt person who acts they know nothing but they know smtg?what do we call tt person for creating the misunderstandings btwn you and another party who suppossedly shld nt be involved?what do we call tt person who told lies abt you and trying hard in degrading your reputation as a woman?what do we call tt person who makes up stories abt you to others and gets away with it?what do we call tt person to make everyone believes the story even though it is an obvious lie?what do we call such person? a lucky bastard?maybe.
i know very well...i'll be the only human on earth having doubts in these 2 people. eventhough,they claimed they changed,bt nothing can changed for 'em degrading me as a woman,by telling what happened to others in the past.i know very well...people wld much believe 'em.if so,shall it be.i am not in any loss.you wanna know who are they? they are my exS.am i being too straightforward? well, maybe.
on a lighter note,i'll be enjoying myself today.party?nah...tt wld be shopping! hah!
*btw what makes you think tt you'll be in talking terms with me?saying one thing after another?dun hv to tell me tt.i knew it for all along.trust me.after this you'll be saying the same shit to other girls out thr.OUCH!*
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