at times,you are put in a spot.you are stiffed,thou' your mind is working.being in this situation ain't easy.i hope one day a miracle will happen.i believe in tt.
past few days kinda hectic for myself.ive bn working, working, working and schooling, schooling, schooling.Aussie cancelled again.my deliberation also happens to be on tt mth.the lecturers pushed it to a later date.maybe in fact, it's nt a gd idea for me 2 go for a holiday when im still schooling.most of my trips are cancelled.it is a good thing becz by now,i've saved alot of money.haha!
bump into an old friend.had a very very long talk.recalling bck on those secondary sch days and laugh our heart out when thinking and talking abt it.haha!yes...zaman whr we were trendy whankers!!thank the Almighty at least we weren't minah in our "growing" stage!haha!
yes...who cares of what ppl thinks of you.what matters are only the ppl ard you.tak luak jadinya if some ppl don't wanna talk to you becoz they are becoming more stylish. dah lawa.. takkan lah nk tegur kita yg "kental-kental" ni kan.haha!im nt bothered.full stop.my days of being the "upcoming-streetswear-trendy-girl" is up.becoz last time,i've too much time to spend on this unnecessary stuffs.not for now.everything have to change,nothing stays the same.
i dunno why.i feel much more peaceful now.i'm able to control my temper.flair up only when thr's a need to.the "old friend" said,"by the look of it,aku boleh nampak kau simpan many things to yourself.jgn darl...let it out if you nd to.talk abt it with your close friends or best friend.Insya Allah...who knows it makes you feel better."
very sweet of her to be concern abt me in tt way even after so long we didnt contact and talk. everyone in this world hv their own problems.tt's why i don't believe in telling ppl too many things.coz i doubted nt everyone able to help me.i only confide in my prayers.when i am given signs to the prayers, it's like an answer and i take it frm thr.yes..i know..me and some of my girlfriends are party-goers..bt we know the doS and dontS.we know our roots.up to each of us in executing it. when you are put in the grave also,its our own bekalan pahala and nt others.
to add on,i knows nt all of the things in life tt my girlfriends shared with me. cz an individual hv their own rights to feel comfortable to whom they wanna confide in. somtimes we might feel,they are nt treating you as close as before.take it in a positive way,maybe they don't wanna tell you becoz they do not wish to add-on to your problems.it is nt necessary to be with your friends and updt 'em abt your life twenty-four-seven.as long we remember 'em by hearts,tt is thoughtful enough.some friends didnt contact us,for some reason.it might be so ridiculous for such reasons, still...we hv to accept it.friendship is abt understanding too.
some friends used to tell me this, "i despise hypocrites alot." so i'd answered, "what makes you think tt you aint a hypocrite yourself?" i make it a point tt if you happens to listen to your friend's prob abt his r'ship with the girlfriend and upon listening you started to hate the girlfriend and giving negative opinions.when they are doing fine, you still said "hi!" to the girlfriend.so tell me readers,aint tt considered a hypocrite too? i admit im a hypocrite.the only honest individual tt Allah has claimed is Prophet Muhammad.no one else.just no other ppl besides Him.so a question my friends, are you hating yourself too? think...think...think of it again. don't let your words to "eat" you.
let it be when ppl see me i'm a bitch.i am quite known of tt.only the ppl who talked to me before and much more simpler to be called as "friends" knows me.maybe nt much,bt they able to see my "gila-ness".as a result,loves disturbing me.nothing new.heh.ppl who ive bn abusing 'em with vulgarities in the past,ive no intention to take it bck even thou' i am sorry. yeap..even they happens to know tt ive said smtg negative abt 'em.i don't believe in denying what i said wld be able to save my ass.i admit it.bt if it really didnt comes out frm my own mouth,i just say 'no' and nt bothered to explain.cz life experiences taught me so.it taught me alot.
off to sch now.shall blog again ltr.
i miss all of you.sorry... hv been busy with myself lately.moreover, nt enough beauty sleep for myself. *smile* promise..tmr we party ok? heh.
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11:25 PM
